Today I leave my twenties behind! Good bye, farewell, tata! Hellooooo thirties!!!
Yes it is my thirtieth birthday and I have to write about it because as much as I've tried to play it down in my mind I have walked up to this day with enthusiasm (love birthdays!!!) and trepidation (thirty!!? What!?). Thankfully on facebook (which makes a girl feel so special on her birthdays) people have reminded me that thirty is the new 20 (is it? oooh la la) and that it is exciting to be onto a new decade of my life.
And I guess it kind of is. After all I don't think I'd live a single day of my 20th year again---but I pretty much like my life right now just as it is. I certainly don't have things figured out but the confusion and discontent of my early 20's (Who am I? Will I get married? What will I do after college?) is gone and though I still have questions (Will I have babies? Will I work as a mom? What should I be doing right NOW? Is blogging a wast of my time?) I've learned a lot about patience over the past decade and about learning to be content with unanswered questions.
So how do I feel about being 30? It's a difficult question to answer, but I have a shopping analogy that should sum it all up: My last purchase was from Roxy (you know, surfer girl line for juniors) and I sort of got a thrill flipping through the most recent Talbot's catalogue. Yes. A thrill.
Do I feel young? Not really. Do I feel old? Heck no! I feel somewhere in between and sometimes it's good to be right smack dab in the middle.